When I am feeling unworthy of love, I go into myself and remember that I am Love. Therefore, I do not need it and I do not need to give it away. I just need to be still and know that I am Love.

That remembrance allows me to naturally emanate love to all around me: plants, humans, animals, ether, water, dirt, insects, birds. It comes from within. Permeating all around. Everything around me will feel my love. This is so important to remember. What will you choose to radiate: love or fear? Darlings, I hope you always choose love.

My experience is not your experience.

We have our own paths.

I did not feel what you felt when you had your heart broken.

But, I somewhat felt it.

A small pain hit my heart out of nowhere when you passed me in the street.

It was not anywhere near the amount of pain you felt in your heart.

But, I somewhat felt it.

I am sorry that you are in pain.

When I felt that pain in my chest, I sent you light.

I hope it helped you.

I know it helped you.

Please know you will be okay.

In the end, everything will be okay.

“As you walk upon the sacred earth, treat each step as a prayer.”

-Black Elk

Working out helps me with stress. Running is like a moving meditation for me. It helps me to focus on what really matters and all the unnecessary shit just sort of fades away. Today during my cool down, while walking on the treadmill, I closed my eyes and held onto the side bars with my hands and walked. While walking, I started to ponder on how doing that felt very much like life. With my eyes closed, I thought about how often, if not almost all the time, we are just walking forward in life not knowing what comes next. Oh, how many times I have wished that I could know what comes next! But, how boring would that be to live and know what your whole life will be already? We humans are brave. We are brave because to walk forward in life and not fully know what comes next is terrifying. Each step we make into the unknown of life is a courageous process. Each day we have to live is a new start where we can love ourselves, others, animals, nature, the earth more fully. There is beauty in taking every moment and being fully present. Even in the midst of hard, sad, moments it is almost a beautiful melancholia to be fully present and to allow yourself to feel whatever emotion you are feeling without judgment. As we step into a new day, a new Spring season, praise yourself for living, for being here at this time on earth to live. It is no accident that you are here living on this earth at this time. Each step we make into that dark abyss of unknown, know that you are courageous for living at this time. Be a little kinder, softer, tender with yourself. Goodness knows we all need to do that. And never ever forget that we are fucking brave in waking up each day not fully knowing what each day brings.

light & love,

jess

When someone attacks your character,

they are hurting inside.

When someone hates you,

they really hate themselves.

When someone lashes out at you,

they are really crying out for help.

Do not take anything personally,

do not take anything personally.

Is the hardest thing I will ever learn.

Do not take anything personally.

Imprint this into your mind and heart

and it will assist you greatly in this life’s journey.

Know that you are love, they are love, we are all love.

We are all here to learn from each other, to teach each other, to love each other, to experience each other’s unique and diverse personalities.

Loving yourself is paramount in loving others.

When your cup is filled,

your love overflows and is able to fill their cup.

You may endure in a situation because you love someone so much.

You may leave a relationship because you are not willing to have your soul be sucked out of you by your partner.

You may have to allow a person to adore you even though you are fucking scared of getting hurt again.

Our journeys are diverse and one of a kind.

Be kind to yourself

and kindness to others will come naturally.

Be soft with yourself

and being soft towards others will occur organically.

Love yourself

and loving others will be inherent.

After all, we are all love. ❤️

love and light,

jess

I dreamed you were lying in bed and something was amiss.

“Are you okay?” I asked.

“No, I am fragile.”

“I know,” I replied.

I wanted to scoop you up and take away every pain you had ever endured and put your heart back together. That big crevice in the middle of your heart would never fully fuse together. Knowing this created a tiny fissure on my heart.

The only way for me to keep sane this year is to fall in love with not being in control; to fall in love with letting go; to fall in love with letting the Universe work it’s magic in my life; to fall in love with getting out of the Universe’s way in regards to my life; to fall in love with the possibility of being rejected by people and things I think are best for me; but ultimately, are not; to fall in love with people and concepts that I thought were out of my league and were too good to be true; to fall in love with knowing the Universe is always looking out for the highest outcome for me and will deliver; to fall in love with trusting that whatever is meant for me will not miss me, but will be like an arrow hitting a bullseye and what is not meant for me will miss me by miles and miles.

love & light,

Jess

I am proud to be a woman. I am grateful that I have been born in a time where I am able to make decisions for myself and not have them made for me. I am proud to be an American Indian woman. I am grateful for the sacrifices of my ancestors that have enabled me to live where I live and be free. I am proud to be a daughter and a sister. I am grateful for my loving parents that have given me so much support. The kind of woman I am today has been shaped and influenced by a lot of amazing women, most especially, my mother.

Thank you to all the women in the past, present, and future for the hard events you have overcome, for the hardships you are currently dealing with, and the difficult things you will encounter. You have become stronger from the difficulties and have went on to inspire others. You are currently touching people’s lives. You will make the world go round.

I am humbled to be a woman and be connected to all the women in the world. We are all connected and what we think, say, and do, really does have an impact on the world. May we continue to rise and create an even better world for the future generations.

love and light,

Jess